| Pancakes! |
[Wednesday, July 2, 2008 @ 4:51pm] |
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| | amused | ] |
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| | "Alive" by Drain STH | ] |
So last night I went bowling with my brother and his friends, and we were there until 2am. When we got done, Neil was like, "I'm hungry. Let's go get some food!" After much deliberation, I suggested we go to IHOP, and the group concurred.
Let me just say that I ate waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too much food and I still feel gross from that. Those commercials on TV for the "Discover America Pancakes" have been torturing me for weeks now, so I ordered the New York Strawberry Cheesecake pancakes. They did not taste like cheesecake at all, but they were still good.
At around 3am, a very very large black man walked in and sat down two tables away from us. Everyone in the restaraunt looked up. The waitress at our table quietly said, "That is the largest man I have ever seen!" The moment he walked past our table, I knew who it was. Oh yes, it was Shaquille O'Neal. Shaq was sitting in a booth by himself, but he was conversing with the five guys at the table next to his. It seemed as if they were already aquainted. Or maybe those guys were just harrassing Shaq as everyone else in the restaurant seemed tempted to do. I swear to God, his bicep alone is almost as thick as my torso.
 
I was trying not to make a big deal about it, as I'm sure most celebrities find it annoying that they can't even go to IHOP at 3am and just eat in peace, but Neil's friends could not stop whispering about "is that really him?" and "I'm totally going to get a picture with him," etc. This girl sitting with us works at a restaurant at Universal Studios and she was saying that it's company policy not to ask for or accept any autographs and shit from celebrities while on duty, so she said "I'm not at work, I'm totally going to ask him this time." And one of the guys with us said, "What if he gets upset?" and the other guy with us said something like, "Yeah, he could kick your ass." And my brother goes, "You mean like a Shaq Attack?"
I started laughing so hard that the whole restaurant was now looking at me. Including Shaq, I think.
But what I really wanted to do was to walk up to him and use my phone to take a video of him saying, "Don't shit your pants, Eric!" (Haha, Glencoe Hills FTW!)
He owns like 5 houses in Florida, and I know at least one is here in the Orlando area. A customer at my cafe had spotted Shaq late last week, so when he came into IHOP last night I was not surprised. Next time I see him, I will definitely get that video!
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| Happy |
[Thursday, June 5, 2008 @ 10:22am] |
| [ | feeling |
| | optimistic | ] |
| [ | hearing |
| | "Untitled" by Born From Ashes (hehehe, my own song) | ] |
So I'm in this new band called Born From Ashes, and we're fucking awesome. Get ready for this, cuz it's gonna rock your socks off. I've written lyrics for two songs now. Writing is really hard because I just beat myself up mentally through the whole process. I obsess over every word, but I feel a real sense of accomplishment once I'm done. I can't wait till we can start playing shows!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I went to Backbooth with my guitarist Ben on Sunday night to see his old band play, and the headliner was this band from Germany called The Ocean. HOLY CRAP, they were amazing! It's kinda like Chimaira only waaaaaaaaaay progressive. They are made up of a whole slew of musicians that colaborated to put the album together, although the live show only consisted of six guys (including two vocalists). I absolutely bought their CD on the spot. Love it.
Jonny and his band just got back from a five-day trip to the Bieler Bros. studio in Pompano Beach to record their EP. I can't wait to hear it. I'm sure it's going to be awesome. I am so glad he's back cuz it was kinda lame without him around.
At work, I'm finally getting more hours and I'm about to get a raise. We are moving to a new (read: better) location, so business should improve and then they can pay me more, and when they need to hire more people perhaps I will get to be a manager.
Summer is upon us, folks. The temperature has been holding steady around 92 degrees all week long. It is hot!
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| I'm hot shit. |
[Thursday, May 22, 2008 @ 4:06pm] |
He can't get enough of me. I've spent time with him on five of the last six days.
Still no "L" word... hmmm.
Meanwhile, my gastritis has come back. UGH. Please kill me.
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| Kindred Spirits |
[Friday, April 11, 2008 @ 12:13am] |
| [ | feeling |
| | nostalgic | ] |
| [ | hearing |
| | "Pushit (Live)" by Tool | ] |
I just had a wonderful epiphany tonight. I just started thinking about the loves of my life... Everyone I'd ever loved, and anyone who ever made me feel loved in return, no matter how brief or tumultuous our relationship was. I thought about the good times, and how it felt when I thought my heart would burst.
I recalled the things I liked most about each person. I thought about how easy we felt around each other, so genuine and earnest. Or I thought about all the laughter we shared. I thought about the truth you brought to my life. I thought about all of your faces. I thought about the thrill of living with passion. I thought about the magnetism. It was intensely bittersweet.
I relived those moments, and suddenly all the tragedies of my life seemed easier. Not that they didn't hurt, but they make the pleasures of life that much sweeter by comparison. Every time hurts more than the last, but that is the price and I am willing to pay for all that I have had. I appreciate the tragedies of my life because the ache of love and pain go hand in hand. At times, they are indistinguishable. This is one of those times.
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| Home Sweet Home |
[Sunday, March 30, 2008 @ 4:06pm] |
It is so good to be back here. I feel like my heart is going to burst. It’s not turning out exactly the way I had imagined it, but I’m still glad I made this trip. Some of it is worse than I expected, some of it is way better. The best thing is that I’m having a great time being with my family. I’ve always felt like the outsider, the one that no one understands, but right now I feel like none of that matters because they are just so genuinely happy to have me around. I feel so loved!!!
But holy crap, I forgot how cold Michigan is!!!!!!
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| The Great American Rampage Tour |
[Saturday, December 15, 2007 @ 1:09pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| | enthralled | ] |
| [ | hearing |
| | "Cote" by Karnivool | ] |
I went to the House of Blues the other night to see Nonpoint in concert, along with Skindred, Ankla, and Karnivool. Nonpoint was great, of course. They put on a very high-energy show, and I like the songs from their new album. Skindred has the most engaging front man I've seen since... I dunno, but he's fucking creative as hell. I actually thought Ankla was kind of boring... old school/speed metal kind of stuff, really repetitive.
But it was the opener band that stole the show! Karnivool rocked my face off!
( You have got to hear this! )
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| Random Thoughts |
[Thursday, December 13, 2007 @ 5:45pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| | bitchy | ] |
| [ | hearing |
| | "To Return" by Chevelle | ] |
I am so fucking sick of school. Thank God the semester is over. My last final exam is on Saturday morning, and then I'm free til January 7th. I forgot my textbook at home today so I couldn't study while I was at work. That really pissed me off. I could have got so much done, but now I'll have to spend all day tomorrow studying instead of doing a little today and a little tomorrow. Fuck.
Going to see Nonpoint in concert tonight... Jonny is so good to me!
( I don't mean to sound ungrateful, BUT... )
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| SQUEE!!!!!!! |
[Thursday, November 22, 2007 @ 4:32pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| | grateful | ] |
| [ | hearing |
| | "Almost Easy" by Avenged Sevenfold | ] |
It's Thanksgiving. Time to take inventory of all my blessings. In no particular order, here's everything that keeps me alive and happy, in a nutshell:
1. Family. My sister Sara and her hubby Phil flew in to be with us, so that's nice. We're going to Disney tomorrow. My sister Jessica is also coming in two more weeks for an early Christmas!
2. Friends. Jonny and I went to Rob and Tina's last night, and Hippo was there, along with Tina's sister Monica. We played games, drank, and smoked, and it was fun as hell. Tee-hee, I have friends! Yay! Haha...
3. Love. I've got my sweetheart, and he is everything I want and need in a partner. I am so lucky.
4. God. This year brought a spiritual epiphany. I have found strength in the Lord, and the warmth of His love feels so good.
5. Music. My band is my second family. My band is my dream. My band is my career. My band is my salvation. We're going to get this drummer business squared away very soon and then we're going to take the world by storm!
So I think I'll get off the computer already and go enjoy the holiday with all those wonderful people I just mentioned. Mmmmmmm, I can't wait to stuff my face!!! I loves food. Oh, yes I do.
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| Hey, I didn't die! |
[Thursday, November 15, 2007 @ 10:38pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| | relaxed | ] |
| [ | hearing |
| | "Queen B" by Puscifer | ] |
( So yeah... surgery went fine. )
I feel great. Much better than I expected I would. And it's all thanks to my wonderful friends and family and the love and support everyone has given me in the past few days. It makes this so much easier to know that so many people care and that you're all rooting for me. So thank you for keeping me in your thoughts. I love you all!!!!
P.S. I bought the new Puscifer album yesterday (gotta love comfort shopping, tee-hee!). It is definitely NOT A Perfect Circle, and it's even further from Tool. But let me tell you... I like it. I like it a lot. This album... it's pure sex. It's so hot. Hippo doesn't know wtf he's talking about. He must have missed something. Maynard is my hero!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111
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| I can do this! |
[Monday, October 22, 2007 @ 1:30pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| | determined | ] |
| [ | hearing |
| | "The Truth" by Nonpoint | ] |
I was heading to Spanish class this morning, thinking about what I'm going to do after I get my Associate's degree in the spring. It's pretty much useless. The only thing it does for me is prove that I went to college and accomplished something. I was thinking how a Bachelor's degree really would be so much more beneficial... and if I'm studying music, my heart will be in it for once, and I will be able to complete my classes relatively stress-free.
So instead of just quitting school, moving out of my parents' house and getting another stupid job, I think I'm going to go ahead and get my Bachelor of Arts in Music. I'll minor in Spanish, maybe do a second minor in Sound Production or something.
Of course, this is still contingent upon what happens with the band next summer. If we get busy, I won't go back to school, but if August comes and we're still waiting for something to happen, I'll register for classes at UCF.
I know it's the right thing to do. I really fucking hate school, but I'll thank me for this someday.
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| Rock Stars |
[Sunday, October 14, 2007 @ 3:40pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| | dorky | ] |
| [ | hearing |
| | "With Teeth" by Nine Inch Nails | ] |
I was chillin at home last night with a bunch of rock stars - Incubus, Explosions in the Sky, Kid Rock, and Heart. What a strange group, right? Let me explain.
( I luuuuuurv Rock and Roll! )
Oh my God, I am so pathetic. D:
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| Roses are red, violets are blue... This poem sucks. |
[Thursday, October 11, 2007 @ 11:16am] |
| [ | feeling |
| | satisfied | ] |
| [ | hearing |
| | "U, U, D, D, L, R, L, R, A, B, Select, Start" by Deftones | ] |
I was reading over some of my old poetry, dated from high school through 2004, and geez... a lot of it was just total garbage. Even the one poem I used to think was my saving grace... sucks. Ugh.
Well, you gotta start somewhere.
But I did find one that I am still proud of, so I'll share it with the class:
( Broken Glass )
Generally, I'm not a very good poet. Writing lyrics is hard as hell, too. I think I'm doing alright with The Judas Kiss, though... they bring out the best in me. ^__^
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| Nightmare |
[Saturday, October 6, 2007 @ 1:35pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| | uncomfortable | ] |
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| | "1969" by Boards of Canada | ] |
Last night...
I was wandering through an old, run down building... the walls were concrete or stone. I was looking for someone. I was sure I would find that person if I could just get to the room at the end of this corridor, but it was completely entangled in spider webs. Wall to wall, floor to ceiling. The spider webs began right in front of where I was standing and continued all the way to the end of the hallway. Now, I really hate spiders. You could even say I'm afraid of them. I saw these spider webs and thought, eww, gross, I don't want to touch that, but I'm going to be brave and go in there anyway. So I walked into the spider webs. I was like three feet into it when I saw the spiders. There was a handful of little ones, like the kind you'd see running around your house, and I tried to just ignore them. I did my best to stay calm. But then, right about at eye level, maybe a couple of feet in front of me, I spotted a really huge one. It was like a foot wide. Huge, and black. It didn't move, it didn't make a sound. It did nothing to threaten me. But I was TERRIFIED. I was frozen in fear. I couldn't take another step. As I stood there, and the fear began to overwhelm me, all the little spiders started coming at me, and suddenly there were dozens of them everywhere I looked. I was about to scream. And my heart broke because I didn't have the courage to reach the person at the end of the corridor.
Then I woke up.
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| I'm so stupid... |
[Wednesday, September 26, 2007 @ 2:55am] |
| [ | feeling |
| | refreshed | ] |
| [ | hearing |
| | "The Day I Tried To Live" by Soundgarden | ] |
( Procrastination ftl? No, ftw!!!!!!!!! )
So I've shrugged off the negative feelings of insecurity that surfaced this weekend. I just let it go. There will always be some uncertainty in life and I need to stop being afraid of that. I'm just going to keep pushing forward and see what happens, and whatever happens, I'll deal with it. Simple as that.
All I really needed was some time to relax and stop worrying. I am constantly worrying and thinking and obsessing over things. I can never just sit back and let life happen. So that's what I was trying to accomplish by doing absolutely nothing this weekend. I had to just shut down and reboot.
And now I'm ready to go again. On your marks... get set... GO!
Oh damn, the dog just farted. Nasty!
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| Dazed and Confused |
[Monday, September 3, 2007 @ 12:49pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| | determined | ] |
| [ | hearing |
| | "TBD" by Live | ] |
I've got a lot of hard work ahead of me, but if I play my cards right...
I'll be graduating in Spring 2008 with an Associates Degree in General Studies.
( Here's how. )
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| Back to School |
[Tuesday, August 28, 2007 @ 10:26am] |
| [ | feeling |
| | cranky | ] |
| [ | hearing |
| | "Suffer Well" by Depeche Mode | ] |
OMG!
I start classes today at Valencia Community College. Ugh.
( Why am I doing this again? )
Thursday is the Incubus concert in Tampa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XD
Friday... road trip to Virginia!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XD
The next two years are going to fly by so fast. Or at least I hope they do, cuz school sucks.
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| You are the perfect drug. |
[Monday, August 27, 2007 @ 12:30pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| | jubilant | ] |
| [ | hearing |
| | "I Don't Mind" by Drain STH | ] |
God is answering my prayers.
It's really quite amazing to me. Even though I am only just beginning to understand what it means to accept Jesus into my heart, I can see that He's always been with me. I am so blessed.
It's subtle, but if you look closely... you can see God in everything.
I am so happy to be alive. It's exhilarating to say that! It's so ridiculous to think that I used to want to die. For the longest time, I just wanted to give up. And look at me now! No medications, no drugs... I'm just high on life. With the power of prayer, I can get through anything.
I had a really tough time two nights ago. I was feeling so low, I thought about all the ways I used to hurt myself to numb the pain, and for a moment I really wanted to give in. But instead, I touched the cross hanging from my neck, and I prayed. I prayed until those thoughts left me. It gave me the strength to endure, and I survived. Now I feel like I've been rewarded for that choice.
I realize of course that what goes up must come down. When I come down from this cloud, it's going to suck big time. But I just want to enjoy this feeling today.
Ahhhhh... :-D
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| I am not alone |
[Thursday, August 23, 2007 @ 10:09pm] |
Thank God my sister bought me another copy of this album for my birthday (it was stolen from me years ago).
Fiona Apple knows exactly how I feel.
( song lyrics. )
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